Yesterday was a big day. I was very agitated to be there and the most important part was to be there before you arrived. Well, i know you very well. Someone should be there for you. So, i was there. The longer i waited for you, the more nervous i was. I started to giggle a little bit, plus it was very cold there and it was in the middle of the night.
I was wondering at which gate you were going to appear? I went to the international gate as i knew that your plane was the code-share plane. There was a possibility that you might came out from that gate.
I saw a small figure, like a teddy bear in the domestic gate. Could it be you? Yes! That was you. However, i pretended that i did not see you. The moment i saw you out from the gate, i felt like hugging you but i knew i couldn't. Hehe..
And the journey for the two of us started there..
After so long, i met you again and in spite of our distance, i will not make it as an excuse for me to leave you alone in this world that are full with harmful things to you. p/s: Seriously, you look nice with that waffle.
I believe that sometimes honesty is not the best policy. For the sake of people that i love out there, i think to suppress feeling would be the best thing to do for the time being. I love you all, though i am hurt with all of you. Perhaps one day i will rebel. Or perhaps i will not.
After all, we are all human and we make mistakes. I am hoping that this will not happen again.
"I'M FEELING DOWN, OFFENDED, TAKEN ABACK, DISAPPOINTED, SAD!"
It's a lie to admit that i don't have any interests recently. I do want things like the others. Only that i feel it might burden you and i prefer not to ask for it. I keep it to myself and pretend that i am fine with it. UNTIL NOW..
I am sorry that i have to say all this. I need someone to talk to, but of course not with all of you. I think it is time for us to revise everything.